I Am His Sheep

The Lord is my Shepherd, I have no doubt..Today was a life changing day for me.  I recently wrote a blog called Nothing Can Separate Us.  After going thru a very bad sick spell and also knowledge that cancer was winning.  I was so sick from the Chemo and mental anguish of dealing with Letting go, or fighting on, letting go would mean no Chemo.  I had a oncology appt. today and had prayed long and hard about what I was going to do.  I have never had a Chemo break other than a week if I went on a trip.  I refused Chemo for 8 weeks.  I wanted to get strong again and make that decision when I was ready to fight.  I prayed all the way to the Dr. and Asked for the Lord to hold my right hand and go with me to this meeting. {I am continually with thee; thou hast Holden my by my right hand. Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory. Psalm 73: 23&24}  He was there and helped me express myself that I wanted to try to live. I feel I’m not quite ready to go yet.  Even though I know a wonderful place with Jesus  is waiting for me.   The Lord did everything for this old sheep.  As the picture above shows he cares for the young and the old ones.  A wonderful friend gave me this picture years ago It’s in an antique frame and It really spoke to me today.  Thank you Patti the Lord used that beautiful gift today.  I had both the PA and the doctor with me today.  Doctor explained that this is a brand new drug that is different in the way it fights cancer than any I have taken.  I have taken and failed,(had progression) with 7 chemo’s in four and a half years.  I with the Lords help agreed to take that Chemo again.  But doctor said this time we will start every other day instead of every day and see if my body will adjust to it.  Then we will try to gradually raise the dose.  I feel like this is the answer for now and the heavy weight has been lifted and I have been given more life.  I hugged my doctor and PA who I love so much, and then Jesus and I walked out the door and I praised Him all the way home.  He was sitting on my right side in the car and held my right hand.  Thank You Lord for your faithfulness.